Remember what you're fighting for.

A reflection of events.

”Because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of My mouth. Because you say, “I am rich, and have become wealthy, and have need of nothing,” and you do not know that you are wretched and miserable and poor and blind and naked.”
-Revelation 3:16-17.

Just finished watching Gangs of New York on TV. Good movie, but very long. Didn't know that it would take 4 hours to finish the movie... Ehh, at least i got something out of it. I'd said that it was time will spent.

in the beginning, the main dude (vallon) in the movie was on a mission to revenge his father's death. However, he ended up under the wings of the very same person who killed his father. At first it was just a plot in order to get close to him, but as time went, vallon became comfortable in his new found fortune and lifestyle. How fitting this story is for all of us. We were all once young men’s with a passion in life. Some dared to be an astronaut, some wanted to be president, while others wanted to be the most loving person ever, a teacher, a pastor, a legend in our own ways. We are born with a mission as men’s of passion, but how easy, and common, it is for us to stray away from our passion because of our desires. To trade in greatness for comfort. There are a lot of desires in this world, wealth, power, fame, the opposite-sex, comfort, love. But one thing to keep in mind is this, all desires will fade away with time, while our passion will burn in our heart until the end.

“Following Jesus is not a game, it is not a Sunday service ritual, it is a denying yourself, taking up your cross daily and following Him even unto death.”
-Jeason Ma

There's this guy i know, his name is Jaeson Ma. He was saved when he was 17th years old, and since then he has been non-stop in living out his passion for God. Had a chance to read up on what he's been doing lately and the stuff that's happening are quite amazing. Things are going on down there in UCLA. There are a spiritual battle going on down there, and students are coming to Christ, people are getting healed, and organizations are coming together in love and unity. that's some crazy stuff, but why is it? It's the same events that we read in our bible, in acts, roman, the corinthians, but then why are we so surprised when stuff like that is happening in our present time? Do we not believe that our God is present and working in our daily lives? Is it 'cause we do not believe we have to power of the Holy Spirit within us? that we too can accomplish miracles through Him who strengthens us? If we can't believe this simple fact, then how can we believe in anything else? But if we believe that we can perform miracles because of the Holy Spirit that resides within us, then why aren't we doing it?

Most of us means well, we like to see our friends and family be blessed, be nice to strangers, raise up a good family, and try to help out those who are in need. We love like we should, but few of us ever lived like it. We mean well, but few follows through with action. Often, this fact becomes clear to those who are in the latter part of their lives, as they are old, dependant on others, reflecting on how they spent their time here on earth, thinking whether or not they lived a life that reflects their inner passion. And likewise, as i am reaching to my end here at OSU I am having these same thoughts, and what it is that i can do to make up for any mistakes so that there will be no regret when i leave.

With my current injuries, it forced me to take a back-seat in many things. To be more dependent on others and needing others more than i used to. It is a good opportunity to be more thankful for the things that i take for granted, to be humbled and rediscover my passion for the weak, and also unexpectedly, finding out who my true friends are in times of need. I have to say, the results are quite unexpected, some friends dropped the ball, while others picked them up. certain people that i thought i can rely on are not the ones that offered aid in my time of need, thus making me think... who are these people and why do i spent time with them? Perhaps I should rethink who i invest my time with in my last 7 weeks here at OSU.

How often it is that we get so caught up with what we are doing, and forgetting why we are doing it. Without the why, there is no sense in doing it anymore. Let us remember what it is that we are fighting for, what our passion is in life, what it is that makes our heart itch every second that we are spending outside of our passion, and once we ignited our fire within, let us fight with all our might.

Anyways, thanks for all those who helped me in my time of need. to my brother who came down and took care of me, and to the girl who took me out clubbing with my bloody toe. Probably wasn’t a good idea, but i think it was worth it.

Leave you all with picture from my toe. I would post it on the website, but it’s kinda gross. For what it’s worth, I think it’s make progress, I can see some skin growing back and what not, and it’s hurting less and less. Anyways, enjoy. (caution: very very gross, if you don’t want to see something bloody, don’t click on it.)

Toe 1 Toe 2 Toe 3 Toe 4

With that said, I should either go to bed, or get ready and go to church. Hmm....